Friday, December 19, 2008

She Lives

Wow. I feel human today for the first time in weeks and weeks and weeks. First it started with THE WORST head cold known to man. I rarely get sick and this one was so wicked. From clogged ears to hacking coughs - we are finally at the end. The school nurse can't call me anymore to tell me my kids are coughing (duh) because Christmas vacation begins today - yippee? What are we going to do for 2 weeks here in tiny Gordonsville? Oh, how we'd all love a day at the children's museum or to have some friends to hang out with.

So the cold that started around Thanksgiving is finally gone and it is ... Christmas - already? How on earth. Well, I guess part of my month was lost due to GRACIE.

World's cutest, sweetest baby. After being a week late (nasty trick for such a sweet girl) she arrived on December 7th. Everything went fine despite my crazy anxiety. I'm so grateful for Jared and his patience and reassurance and his mad labor coaching skills - he's totally in the wrong profession (something we say quite often around here) he really should have been a doula.

I was supposed to be in charge of the Relief Society Christmas dinner the Friday after Grace was born but thanks to her late arrival I had to turn it all over to my awesome committee who I can not thank enough. I am not one to easily relinquish control (I know, you're all shocked) and it was a humbling experience to be forced to accept the service of others.

When I thought I was ready to feel human again I spiked a crazy fever. 103.5 to be exact and had another anxiety attack over going to the doctor. I am terrified of visiting the doctor - I HATE it. A little ironic considering my husband's choice of profession. The only time I go to the doctor is when I'm pregnant. I struggle just being inside a hosptial (although the many hours I've hung out with my Dad in the hospital over the past few years have helped me be more normal about hosptials) but I still bargain with the doctors everytime I have a baby to let me go home asap. Anyway, I did go to the doctor who had no ideas about the fever. Luckily it went away after a couple days and now I think it's safe to say - I feel like a real person!